BROKEN - Blogtober 2020

Broken

 I despise the things I do though it's me

Is it my woundedness or just anger?

Vow and break, vow and break, how can it be?

I hurt you with my words like a dagger

Mom used to show me how to retreat and sulk

Did I get that from her when I go hide?

Dad modeled to be scary like the Hulk

Did I inherit his negative traits?

I have taken steps to be different though

Talk to counselors and worked all the steps

Yet real change and maturity seems slow

True recovery it seems is complex

     Thought I was healed, but I had misspoken

     I cannot be mended: I stand broken

--Shenandoah Lynd